I tried many times to sit down and write this testimony. There were so many changes, lessons, and "extenuating circumstances" that happened during this trial that I'd never be able to get them in this limited space. 

The bottom line is: "Nothing is impossible for God!"

Believe His word, apply His teachings to your life, live by the faith that you know is true, and trust Him to take care of you and your circumstances, then you can rest assured you have already won the victory! God has been faithful to His promises to me,
and He is waiting to do the same for you.

In November of 1992, my husband came to me and told me he was unhappy in the marriage. He was tired of my verbal abuse and attacks, and was withdrawing from our marriage. He stayed in the home for the sake of the children, but any emotional or physical relationship we'd had was severed. The marriage was considered dead. It was at this time I sought the only source of hope I could think of. God, through the grace of His Son, Jesus Christ, reached down and picked me up from the rubble. My quest to save the marriage began by reading everything I could about marriage and the art of being a Godly wife. Little changes were made, but I had no solid foundation and often fell back into old patterns of my past. Unfortunately, the more I sought the Lord and His ways for my answers, the farther my husband would withdraw from the marriage...My husband eventually moved out in August of 1996 and confessed to an affair. I was so lost without this part of my"identity," that I numbed the pain through lots of alcohol. The months between August and December are a blur. The only way the kids and I survived that time in our lives is because the Lord literally carried us through it.  By the time January 1997 rolled around, I knew it was time to make some major changes in my life... starting with myself. I quit drinking and immersed myself in the Bible - learning about Jesus and applying His teachings to applicable areas of my life. There were days I spent as many as 6-10 hours just studying the Word, cross-referencing verse after verse. A true relationship with Jesus Christ was established, and changes started happening within me that can only be attributed to the strength and guidance that He provided during that time. Throughout 1997, my husband and I had a minimum of seven conversations about filing for divorce. Although we were both tired of our circumstances, neither one of us could seem to cross that final line.

I knew the Lord hated divorce (Mal. 2:16), and if He hated divorce, and nothing was impossible for Him (Matt. 19:26), He could change my marital situation should it be His will. Many times I would ask him to change my heart towards my husband...asking God to take away my desires for him. No matter what I prayed, I remained in love with him and my husband remained in my visions of our future. Each time I thought I couldn't go on, God would always provide me with a Bible verse or words from a trusted friend to keep me going. Each time I persevered through the hurt, He provided another burst of strength to continue the battle. That year was one of the hardest, most painful -- yet most rewarding -- years I've ever lived through. By January, 1998, I started noticing little changes in my husband. He was spending more time with the family and seemed more relaxed and at peace than I'd ever seen him before. In April, he came over one day to see us and never left again. Only God! My husband is not a believer. There is nothing I did that changed him. There is nothing I did that caused him to return. The only thing that happened, when I tried to instigate any changes, was more frustration for me, and more distance from him. What happened? God changed ME!   And that change started a chain of changes in our circumstances right on down the line.  You cannot fix your situation! Begin your journey by seeking God through His Son Jesus Christ.  Seek to know Him...to have an encounter with the living God, and not for what you want Him to do to make your life better. God wants YOU. He wants you to want HIM more than you want the restoration of the marriage. I promise...and God promises...you won't be disappointed! When you seek Him, you will find Him. This is simply the cliff-notes version. The journey itself was much more involved. There were so many things that happened - so many miracles witnessed, so many prayers answered. Please feel free to e-mail me with any questions, comments or prayer requests. Thank you, and God bless!

"How I deal with Adultery" by Leanne Nava

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